• I've always exhibited nonhuman traits but didn't find the therian community until my 12th birthday, which I count as the beginning of my "awakening" officially. That's when I found a word for my experiences as wolf, the only nonhuman part of myself that was really prominent at the time. It wouldn't be until 6 and a half years later that I'd figure out I'm also fictionkin, and then not until a year or two after that that I learned of another fictotype.

    It's honestly an ongoing process for me (not of finding new things necessarily but of coming to understand myself and how all of it fits together) and not just a singular Awakening event.

  • Thanks! Now to wait for someone to approve my join request. xD

  • So, I've got BPD and am part of a multiple system, and the way I work within the system means that that combo will guarantee my personality doesn't exactly stay...stable. And I have a really hard time pinpointing my personality traits. ^ ^;; So I've pretty much accepted that we will never "settle" and that's ok. Different forms fit across time, and right now we seem to be in the snake zone. :P I kept going between green tree snake and rat snake, but right now I think we've settled on rat snake.

    Our comfort forms are maned wolf, black domestic cat, and crow. Im crow- and cat-hearted so that kinda influences that. Fox on stilts is just a form I've always loved and is helpful for when I feel like I need protection, because I get a big ol maned wolf backing me up. :P

    I know Rythis is a black rat snake, a black cat, a crow so..obviously black..and I wonder if he'd be melanistic sometimes as a maned wolf but it doesn't seem to happen consistently so idk if I influence that purposefully or not.

  • I think I heard of daemonism on Werelist when I was in middle school because the therian and daemian communities would sometimes overlap. :P I thought the idea was super cool and got way into it. Now I kinda move quietly in and out of the community.

  • Oh wow, I had no idea there was a Facebook community. Any chance I could join in on that?

    I project my daemon on and off. Soemtimes out of need, sometimes because I get a sudden burst of TDF nostalgia, sometimes he just shows up on his own...:P

  • I'm part of a plural system (diagnosed DID, but that's only bc we're trauma-influenced and dysfunctional, not bc we're strictly psych-oriented) in addition to being a daemian. Our communities are definitely still alive and kicking ;P

    Tbh Im always surprised when I see daemians around anywhere. I always wonder if the community is still going, as I don't spend much time around TDF anymore.

  • If you can at any point, and you have a local Goodwill that gets donated items from local stores like mine does, you could always go buy (or steal, to be honest. I put trans needs above capitalism and it genuinely does not hurt us employees) a cheap bra from there if it might help?

    You could also ask a friend for a bra, if you have any that you trust, or ask for a donation of one if you have a social media platform that you'd feel safe doing this on. If I had any bras left that I thought would fit, I'd offer, myself. Alas, they're all gone, or else likely too large.

    I wish you luck, though, if you haven't managed by now, looking at the original date of this post.

  • Im still in the process of coming out to my individual co-workers. I was absle to start with my chosen name, thankfully, but people still misgender me, even if they know I go by they/them, and I haven't managed to tell everyone yet so it's like. Dhasjdkahk. Customers 'ma'am'ing me and stuff doesnt bother me as much because they dont know and I can just let it roll off my back but trying to get my co-workers to use the right pronouns and to not argue about they/them being plural is a pain in the ass.

    I dont have much advice, sadly, but I can at least empathize. I hope you can get it worked out. <3

  • I had to photoshop my own gender picture to capture the intricacies of it but I think I did a good job.

  • Hey, call me Crow. I'm 20, nonbinary, autistic, share a body with 27 other people (we're a DID system), and I've got ahem ARFID, BPD, DPD, major depression, C-PTSD, generalized anxiety, SEVERE tokophobia, currently mild and managed agoraphobia, and have psychotic features to my PDs when under immense stress or off my meds, apparently.

    waves

  • I don't quite have a phobia, but what I do have falls under Avoidant-Restrictive Food Intake Disorder as "selective eating disorder" and I have a lot of the same struggles with needing simple, sensory-friendly foods, as well, and being really averse to foods that are unfamiliar or that just..don't look like what I want to eat. Being autistic, new things are weird and uncomfortable and I like my routine. Beyond that, there's the high likelihood that I will actually just not like the food.

    And that means that I also frequently end up eating junk food, or food geared toward kids, or otherwise have social stress around food. I once broke down crying in the middle of an organic grocery store when my friend was buying me groceries and kept suggesting all these foods I didnt want and I had to look childish and unhealthy and want all the safe foods and not the healthy crunchy stuff they kept suggesting. Thankfully they understood but. It's hard.

    Food is hard. :c

  • Honestly between just "talk therapy" and EMDR. EMDR is the only thing that's helped with my PTSD thus far. CBT is. Eh. It's usually stuff I already know. It doesn't help when I'm already aware my reactions to things are irrational, doesn't make them go away. Never helped me.

    DBT is like. My anti-therapy. Having the worst possible versions of it forced on me in the hospital was enough to put me off it for life.

  • I think memes, articles, and recommendations are most of what I'd like to see.

  • I'm primarily a Lokean, and a godspouse of the infamous Trickster, Himself. My primary focus in on Him and His family, though I have flitted around to deities from other pantheons. I guess you could call me a spirit worker. I was also raised Catholic and still have a lot of feels about that so I'm trying to reconcile the two paths into some odd Christopagan-ish blend. Still working on it.

    My daily devotion, as of now, is mostly wearing head coverings. I suppose it's mostly something I do for myself, though I've always felt some need to do it, but it keeps me spiritually focused and grounded. I've got a growing collection of headscarves. :P