I know in a world of computers, people don't have time to practice their handwriting, but it annoys me when they're really bad at it. Just print something out. Or write better. Ugh. The world is unfair and everything is wrong. Many, many dumb people have made a series of very poor, unfortunate decisions that have led to this moment in history. My faith in humanity has plummeteddddddddddddddddddddddd I always thought I would yell it at my mom. "I told you I was raped and you didn't believe me!!" It came out as barely a whisper. Because it had just gone on too long and I couldn't lie enthusiastically while maintaining eye contact. She asked me too many... I'm a trans woman and I really worry that I'll never find anyone to love me. I really would like a girlfriend or just someone to have sex with. I am a virgin. But I worry that even if I was really gorgeous and smart and everything else, being trans would ... After suffering from diagnosed depression for thirty or so years, I've become only too painfully aware how difficult it must be for my partner and friends to deal with. One day I'm up the next day (or hour) down with no apparent cause, and no external inf... Do I like him? Did I just need the easy lay? Do I just like the attention? I don't know. But he likes me, and I need to figure this out before I hurt him. Had my first one night stand, and gay experience for the first time last night. Still processing how I feel about it. TMI ahead. When I first got there, I was pratically shaking from how nervous I was. Maybe a bit scared as well? I made the first move for... Mother: You've never had sex Me: lol cute (I was raped as a child, I told her, she didn't believe me and I guess must have completely forgotten. The abuse continued for years.) Feeling a bit better this evening, but I'm increasingly wishing I were dead. I try and try, and it all seems like it's been for nothing.