Didn't Respond to a Friend's Texts/Calls Tonight...

Didn't Respond to a Friend's Texts/Calls Tonight...

I suffer from anxiety but I cover it pretty well, most of the time. I've a long history of pushing myself outside of my comfort zone. If I'm invited to a social engagement, I will usually force myself to go even if I don't feel like it, "just in case". You never know. Even if you don't feel up for it, anything can happen, and I've had some great times when I've forced myself to go out to something I was hesitant to attend.

That said, past couple of things I've forced myself to attend didn't really "pay off". So when this friend texted me to come out and play tonight, impromptu... I didn't respond. A few hours after he sent the initial text, he actually tried CALLING -- and I didn't respond.

I feel a little bad/guilty. And who knows, maybe this one could have "paid off" in some way. FOMO. Fear Of Missing Out. There is a parallel universe where my entire life could have gotten better if I'd just gone out tonight. But... I just couldn't get myself to go out tonight...