I would like to commit myself to a psychiatric hospital but I'm afraid they won't let me out.

I really hate myself.

I stopped cutting years ago, but the urge to start again is so strong.

I feel like I should go to a hospital. Just to separate myself from my life (and sharp things) for a little bit. But I have to go to work tomorrow. I don't want to lose my job.

I wish there was some sort of in between where you can admit that you're having suicidal thoughts, but people don't panic and report you or tell you to call 911 or tell you they don't know you but that they love you or some shit like that. Something where you can call out of work and still get a doctor's note for your invisible illness.

You can just say, "Hey I feel like slitting my arms, can I have a room for the night or weekend or whatever?" and someone just says, "Yes. Do you want any medication?" And you're like, "Nah. I just need quiet. And I need to lay down and cry about my life without anyone throwing a fit." And they're like, "Ok. No problem. See you in the morning." And you can be away from anything harmful. And in the morning you can just get some breakfast and walk out because no one panicked and put you in a straight jacket or locked you up for your "well-being".