I just can't figure out how to use this thing. Goddamn, how is it possible to feel so many feelings? Leaving for Salt Lake tomorrow afternoon. I have a lot of feelings about that, too, but I have a lot of feelings about everything. Been awake for three hours with horrible intrusive thoughts. I should have taken an Ativan when I woke up--I was dreaming about being in the hospital again--but for some reason I always think, "It'll get better on its own; no reason to waste medication," ... Hello world.