Frustration

In general, I am not a frustrated person. But I finally got a job lead, a thing that has been very difficult to do. I can make a real living wage, I thought - maybe I can actually afford a place to live, food, instead of being stuck relying on family. They really wanted to interview me!

So I called today. Can you drive? they asked. Yes! I said. Are you on drugs? they said. No, unless you count prescription medication, I said.

So she goes, Oh, prescription medication-- you'll have to call our company doctor and get cleared to continue this interview.

Okay, that's fine! I called the doctor. I tell him my list of medications. Some of them are cancer treatment medications: hormone therapy. They aren't chemotherapy (thank God!). I can do everything totally normally; I live life like any other person. There are some mild side effects, but according to my doctors, I should be out living life and getting jobs like anyone else. But this doctor got all uptight about it.

Oh, he says, well, I'll need a letter from each doctor, stating you are in stable condition and that there are no restrictions. Because you're in chemotherapy.

But I'm not in chemotherapy.

"I still need a doctor's note that you are stable and can work."

I'm already working!!!

I'm so frustrated. Sure, they can send the note along. But it will mean lots of extra hassle and now there's already a red flag on me as an employee. Sure, they can't refuse to hire me because of the cancer. But will they want to hire me? I sincerely doubt it. :( Companies don't want people with difficulties. They want people who are easy. I have to be on this medication for 5-8 years. I just want someone to put a little bit of trust in my ability as a worker for once.

I feel very discouraged. I know it's not productive, but financial troubles are crushingly stressful right now. This job felt like a lifesaver in a sea of impossible jobs! I was so willing to do it!

Maybe they will still call me. Maybe...

Sorry for this less than cheery post. It just seems like everywhere I turn, there's a bracket of thorns in the path of a new job, or hope for being independent.