My experiences putting all of me together to cope with chronic illness, depression, anxiety in a constructive way.
Another Step Forward
Therapy is now on Thursdays because my class is Monday and Wednesdays. I shared the thoughts I posted about yesterday with My Therapist. His big takeaway was something that hadn't occurred to me at all. I have separated the depression and anxiety from my identity, my self. He said that's a very big step in the direction of things being better.
I'm still contemplating that.
In the meantime, I had a really difficult time waking up this morning and have been somewhat tired, cranky, and anxious all day. Fortunately not hurting more than I can ignore.
Struggling also with the reality that I need to be more organized and focused on a plan for the future and getting a part-time job while I am taking classes.
Adulting stuff, ugh.
I have found I am mourning more than just my family members that have passed. The experience awakened in me the realization that there are parts of myself I have lost, or hopefully maybe they are simply dormant?, anyhow I miss them. I used to build web pages just so I could see how the coding worked. Now I want to know those things but I can't be bothered to do anything about it just to learn. I knew this had changed but lately I've remembered what it felt like and it's like realizing at a whole different level.
How about something postive and constructive? Do you remember that black pile of yarn that I had frogged and took a picture of? Yes, no, maybe? Well I did finally finish one of the booties and I'm almost finished with the second of the pair. That will hopefully be tomorrow. I'll post a photo or two.
big smiles everyone
I wish something positive for each of you.
Love, M



