need some unstucking

I know I've been quiet. I feel like I'm in between still, in that limbo of not being able to move on with my own things but also not really being able to do anything to resolve the current situation.

There are things I could be doing, working on my stories or learning code or knitting or anything really. I just can't find the focus for any of that. I expect it's depression.

I have a trip to NOLA coming up. We are going to see John Prine. That will be a bright spot.

In the meantime, the daddy saga continues. Things were crazy last week and I missed my therapy appointment. I've adjusted my scheduled day to Wednesday's starting next week to hopefully help make them easier to keep going foward. I hope I get to go in next week, My Therapist has been good about doing phone calls but I feel like I need an in person appointment, as though that might help get me out of this mental rut where I seem to be unable to do anything until this is all over one way or another. If all goes well, this will not be over for some time so I cannot put my life on hold completely.

I have to figure out how to have a routine that will be constructive. With the fatigue, I have difficulty focusing or remembering in a way that makes a complicated routine difficult. Life is complicated right now though. It's what I'm processing right now, I guess, this is my reality so how do I work it.