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Worst Things
As this is a help community, we should not be afraid to open up and lay down our burdens to each other, as well as help carry the burdens of others. So, if you will, post the worst thing going on in your life right now. This is not a negative, as it lets the issue breathe, and offers new perspective on potential solutions. It can be anything from a bad morning, to living in a war-torn country. Feel free to post Anon, as well.




I will start. I was recently in a car accident, my crap insurance company dropped me with a false claim, and the person I am dealing with has screwed me over. We were going to handle the costs civil-ly, so the other party was going to get a few quotes. Two months go by, I finally get a quote on a Friday, and they demand half of the significantly inflated price by the end of the weekend. I was charged for the accident, even though the other party instigated it, so I now have a ticket to pay, as well as being sued by an insurance company. As I am only 20 years old, I have virtually no experience in domestic court, or in dealing with this situation.
Sometimes I feel lonely.
Anxiety's destroying my brain and I lay in bed crying a few too many nights for someone who's cheerful around other people. I know I need help, but it's hard to ask, because ANXIETY.
I used to be an artistic, crafty, ambitious person who constantly loved moving and traveling. No one was in my life who I didn't want there; ever heard of the INFJ door slam? I exercised it regularly and was very happy that way.
I feel like the combination of always compromising/pleasing others and the crushing realities of being an adult in America has made life too heavy for me to be that person anymore. I worry that I'm stuffing down all my worries and resentfulness of living an unfulfilling, "typical" life that is sold to us via media and that I'm wasting my limited time alive.
Even though there's nothing particularly wrong and I don't always have the energy to change the above, its left me with this permanent feeling of: if I had to rate my life on a scale of 1 to 10, I'd be at a 6 or 7.
My parents are still alive (whom I'm extremely close to), I am so unbelievably in love (even after 12 years together), everyone has a roof over their head, jobs, cars, no financial worries, but....blah. Still 6 or 7 most days. I don't feel like I'm doing anything worthwhile; I tell myself love is worth it, being loyal is worth it, being dependable is worth it. Most of the time I don't know what I want instead or have the energy to change what I do know. I end up feeling selfish and resentful and ungrateful and worthless.
This is always at the back of my head, gnawing at me.