For introverts, by introverts. Welcome. But no pressure!
Friendships, relationships and other stuff
I have no idea how to start this but the thing I want to say is:
I am happy with my friends and the amount I have. The thing with the friendships I have is that all of them stem from common interests and not neccesarily how well we match, this doesn't have to be bad and I think we match pretty well and we're all pretty close I guess.
BUT I don't think I've ever made a friend because we really match and my friendships completely disappear when our interests differenciate. Once again not a huge problem, I'm pretty self-sufficient and I think I could be completely fine by myself. (Don't want to find out though) However this becomes a problem with girls. I like playing video games and watching movies. All though there are certainly girls who like both I haven't found any but this can also be attributed to me because I only talk to friends. I have not had a lenghty conversation with a girl in the last 5 years. (I'm 17) Although I don't need a girlfriend I think that a lot of what I want could be solved by a person who I can tell everything to and is kinda forced to care.
I now realize that I left out that conversations with my friends are only for fun and I have never told them something to get mental support. I hope the last part made sense along with the rest. If you read everything it really means a lot and this was a sort of off my chest thing but thoughts and help are extremelt welcome.




Reaching the point where you are sure you can rely on a friend for that mental support is tricky, and takes time. My only real suggestion I can come up with is, start small. First lean on that casual friend for venting about something familiar and annoying, that won't hurt as much if they turn out to not be a good choice. Then you can slowly get to trusting each other for more important things. Don't go straight to the big stuff. As far as girls, honestly, most of us at 17 are still going to be relying on our girl friends for emotional support, rather than looking to any boy we know. That'll start changing over the next few years as you all start getting into your early 20's, and coupling up moves into a new stage of life. Granted, it's been a long time since I was at that stage, but it seemed to still be true for my younger relatives. I'm sorry this all boils down to "have patience, things will change" because I know you probably hear that a lot, but it is true. The teen years are a thing to just endure until real life starts. Good luck, and hang in there.
Maybe you need kind of relationship Jean-Paul Sartre and Simone de Beauvoir had. They were close but not monogamous.