On My Mind

I see so many people talking about how Russia's involvement in the election is because they want to destabilize America. There's only one problem with this: It supposes a plan to affect the future.

I'm sorry to say the destabilization has already happened. Right now, there's not much to it, but it's growing. It starts with a small tremor of words and fear and grows until it's a cascading earthquake creating destruction and destroying the lives of - if not outright killing - millions. I'm passing back and forth between fear and rage at all of this. Fear for my family and my friends. Fear that the man that's about to run our country for the next four years will run it into the ground and take everyone kicking and screaming (and some cheering) with him. Rage that there are those cheering. Rage at what the CIA has uncovered and yet so many are shrugging about. Rage at the destabilization that has come about already. Rage at having such a small voice with which to scream.

It's true that many voices can make a difference. But look at the election. Many voices spoke for Clinton. Many more spoke for her than for her opponent, but that didn't matter. Russia's voice was loudest. Even louder than the millions of Americans who screamed for progress and hope. Their voices were shut down with a blue-eyed smirk and an orange puppet.

So, where does that leave us? Where does that leave the millions of Americans whose voices are small? Where does that leave the millions of Americans whose voices were loud, but not loud enough? Where does that leave those Americans who think they've won, but just tossed the rest of us down the drain?

I don't have answers. I wish I did. All I know is that I'm scared and pissed and all I want to do is scream loud enough to be heard.