Having decided roughly what I want to do with my life, this is me trying to figure out a way of actually getting there.
30 Tomorrow
I felt like I should write something, and I'm not sure I'll have a chance tomorrow. I haven't got much to say. I'm not in the place I want to be right now, but I am close and have the means to take those last steps, which I am very grateful for. In a way, I feel like getting here has been too easy, I haven't done much/anything to deserve it. Sometimes I feel like I wasted my 20s a bit by not having more big experiences, but on the other hand I don't know what other experiences I could have realistically had, given my personality. I think I pushed the envelope reasonably hard under the circumstances, and that's going to be enough, even if I could perhaps have pushed it harder.
I'm not big on resolutions, but one thing I have resolved to do is to try to be less distracted/distractable, particularly in relation to media. I'm thinking about it now because of a classic Someone Is Wrong On The Internet And Is Refusing To Critically Engage With Their Own Position In Spite Of Multiple People Posting Excellent Counterarguments situation, but it's something I've been thinking about for a while. I've noticed that, since getting a smartphone that can handle my demands, I'm less inclined to focus properly. I'll surf while watching TV, skim articles while I'm playing and play while I wait for videos to load. These aren't terrible things in themselves, but I don't think they're good for me. Lately I've noticed myself feeling more frustrated and less satisfied with all the media I consume, and it coincides with getting used to my phone being smart. So, I'm going to try cutting down, particularly on the train and when watching TV. I'll still check Facebook, but I'm going to actively avoid other comment-y sites for a little while and stock up on new books and music instead.
On that note, any recommendations of either much appreciated! :)



