Anything to do with mental illnesses/disorders
Does this ever happen to anyone...
I don't know if this is a part of having depression and/or anxiety, but does it ever happen to anyone that they have completely mixed/opposite feelings about something or someone, to the point where the two halves of yourself can't relate to each other?
For instance, lets say you have a friend. Sometimes you feel as if this friend is the best person you've ever met, you're so lucky to know them, you want to spend all your time with them, etc. And then something will happen (not sure if the catalyst is important) and you feel like they're using you, they don't really love you, you want them out of your life; and you can remember/feel any of the things you felt before. And then something else would happen and you feel all the good things again and can't remember/feel any of the bad things from before.
I imagine it like there are two complete halves in me that I inhabit completely from time to time but they don't communicate with each other at all. I know each half exists but I can't remember why I was panicking or why I thought everything was wonderful, but both sides feel very very real.
I don't know if I explained that well - does anyone know what I mean?




Yes, that is actually very common and it's called "splitting". You can read more about it on Wikipedia.
I have that too. One day I'll think someone is totally great and the next they do something minor and I blow it out of proportion and almost start hating them.
You can learn to recognise when this happens. And when it happens you can remind yourself that all human beings are imperfect and that sometimes even those you love will hurt you, most often not consciously.
I'm reading a lot of articles now.....I think you're right. Thanks for the help.
I've heard this happening a lot to people who have borderline personality disorder. I don't have this myself, but remember reading about it somewhere (maybe in my psych courses in uni). It might be something that happens to a lot of people and it's just exaggerated in BPD? Or maybe it's a symptom in other conditions as well? I'm not a doctor or a therapist.
I feel like I've experienced this but to a lesser degree, and also the feeling is only temporary usually. Like, maybe minutes to hours, not longer than that.
From what I've read over the past several hours, its a defense mechanism that is frequently found in BPD but its not exclusive. The more I read about how it works, why it occurs....it very much fits me.
Mine seems to last as long as the mood/anxiety lasts, which can be days, and ends when I finally decide to write it out. Then its like it never happened.
One of the symptoms of depression is difficulty making decisions and also having distorted thoughts. So the two can probably go hand-in-hand, I would think, and produce something like this.
I've felt something like that with my best friend. At times I've been like, "fuck that guy... if he doesn't want to put the effort into being friends, then I don't need him. Fuck him." and then he or I will text and it's right back to our normal friendship.
Yeah I guess....I mean I suspected that was the answer, but I find it to be very unsatisfying. 😞
Well, the fact that you're recognizing what's going on is a good sign of self-awareness at least. Now you can work on making a decision as to whether this person adds to or detracts from your life and figure out to what degree you want them in your life. You're in control now that you recognize it.
Sometimes I feel that way about things (but not people). It seems to be a positivity/negativity thing
i have that too, and i sometimes even go in argument with myself. i mean i don't have a split personality or anything, but i do argue with/talk to myself from time to time. i have the same thing with my crush now, we are friends, but she ignores me often so now i don't know what to think D: