Rants ahoy

Hello, P (for people).

I'm just having a bad day for no seemed reason. The sun is up, the sky are blue, my job is easy and not demanding too much and I'm surrounded by books and people (I'm a librarian). Yet I'm feeling anxious, in bad mood, powerless, shamed and angry with myself, with my weaknesses. And then guilt above all these things.

I would never know if I have some illness which brings me down, or if my feelings have some kind of meaning - something that should make sense and drive me into some kind of change... I feel - who would want to be with me? As in a girlfriend. Who would want to take in all this mess?...

Are you having a bad day? Maybe a couple of bad days? Maybe you just want to rant.

Please, rant here for free. Don't feel like you need to rationalize or apologize for anyone. Sometimes even keeping an uplift spirit is hard. Sometimes you just need to rant.