TFW

The Depression Hammer just slams into you.

I have not had oc thoughts in forever. I just play wow these days because it's fun but also doesn't require a lot of actual thought. Distraction without a lot of effort because I honestly don't have it in me.

I miss my characters. I miss having ideas. I miss the passion and excitement I had over my Fallout stuff. I try to blame a lot of things but what it comes down to is that I am just tired and out of ideas. It doesn't help that it still feels like everyone is doing what I do but better, and that all the people around me who I actually like hate everything I'm interested in so I have no one to talk to about stuff, or hardly anyone. Not that I don't value the people I do talk to but when my interests come up in a conversation with various people I consider friends, and it turns into nothing but negativity, it just honestly kills any desire I have to do anything anymore.

I'm just tired and sad and I hate it and I'm sorry to whine but I have to somewhere, you know?