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Neurodiversity

Neurodiversity

A home for discussion of neurodiversity, both as an innate reality and an activist mindset.

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  • MerahJul 30, 2016 at 5:19 PMΔ

    I really loved this article, thank you for sharing! Some quotes I really connected with; I get excited when I feel understood/validated. (I'll come back and add more later):

    I remember at one point feeling that medication was a sign of weakness and that it would erase some central aspect of personality.

    Medication and therapy are very much discouraged in my family, and considering our predisposition towards mental illnesses, as an adult I find this attitude to be all out dangerous. As a teen when my depression was BADbad, one of my biggest concerns was an erasure or dampening of my personality. I constantly heard horror stories of medications that left people feeling numb, dull; basically not themselves. I determined from an early age that I would live with my depression in all its peaks and valleys as is.

    What I’ve come to realize is that seeking attention is not a bad thing. The desire to want help and support does not make depression or self-harm any less real. Loving support is a positive thing and the desire for it does not make one weak or fake.

    This is something I only realized as an adult. A huge catalyst in being more vocal has in fact been Imzy. Thank you for existing. :)

    Often I wondered if being dead might be preferable but it never progressed to actually contemplating ways to kill myself.

    Just identified with this personally. I find a lot of times when you tell a neurotypical person that you have depression, the conversation sharply steers towards suicidal worries/"jokes" and spending the rest of the time reassuring them that's not you.

    I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless.

    Depression is boring. Dreadfully boring. I am not always sad when I’m depressed. I’m listless, tired, angry, frustrated. So many other emotions. The similarity is that the emotions drain me and overwhelm me.

    Depression can be numbness. The emotional equivalent of watching paint dry. It can be not being able to get out of bed. Its self depreciation and self doubt. Endless exhaustion. Insomnia. Randomly crying alone in bed at 2am because your insomnia lead your thoughts to dead loved ones or missed opportunities or memories you didn't appreciate at the time.

    For those of us who can work, people can’t imagine we’re depressed because we’re functioning in what they consider a normal world.

    I cannot tell you how many times that has been said to me.

    But there are days when I wake up and literally can’t get out of bed. The thought of having to go out and interact is painful and unbearable. Yet often during my life I had no choice but to work. And l lost a lot of jobs because I called in too much

    I've never lost a job over it, but I've definitely had bosses call me into their office to discuss the amount of sick days I take or snarky passive comments in front of everyone.

    "Why can’t you just be happy?"

    My high school best friend (at the time) said this to me word for word. She grew up to be a fucking therapist. -.-

    Depression is not the polar opposite of happiness. But inside the depression sits and dulls everything.

  • MerahJul 30, 2016 at 8:59 PMΔ

    Thanks for listening. :)

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      • MerahJul 30, 2016 at 9:14 PMΔ

        Not at all! I assumed it was you who hearted my post and I agree its kind of like saying, I see you and agree. I just added a second comment because I don't think Imzy notifies you when you edit a post and I wanted you to read what I added. :#)

        I always like the articles you post; they are either super educating or personally validating. I constantly battle with feeling uncomfortable/silly/too much when I reply to someone all of the time, so I'm actually reallyreallyreally relieved you said that.

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      • MerahJul 30, 2016 at 10:06 PMΔ

        HAHAHA yeah they gotta get on that DM business!

        I would LOVE to help out - thank you for asking me!!! Is there anything specific you're looking for other than making sure /neurodiversity stays a safe place, occasionally posting things, etc?

Neurodiversity

Neurodiversity

A home for discussion of neurodiversity, both as an innate reality and an activist mindset.

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