[CW: Intracommunity Abuse] Sorry guys, but I'm just going to be blunt.

Out of all of our time in the plurality community, we have seen FAR MORE abusive, douchey traumagenic systems than endogenic systems. And we're saying this as a half-traumagenic system ourselves!

Just, ugh. I really do not want to delve into the full details of what we've seen, because those tactics really closely pattern-match to the tactics used by our own abusers - gaslighting, victim blaming, invalidating someone's very existence, trying to turn people on each other, using abuse as an excuse to abuse - that even thinking about them makes us feel faint and ill. If it wasn't for the fact that we know where to hang out in order to find NON-douchey trauma systems, there's a very high chance that we'd just flinch away from anyone who IDs as traumagenic. Hell, as it stands, we reflexively flinch away from any traumagenic-IDed systems we see on Tumblr unless we see them explicitly say they're supportive of endogenic systems.

Yes, despite being largely traumagenic ourselves. And yes, there would have been constant selves-loathing as well, and paranoia over when our own abuse history would finally get to us and turn us into the assbags that abuse seems to DESTINE traumagenic systems for. Thank god the first traumagenic systems we got to know taught us otherwise!

I'm not saying there aren't abusive, douchey endogenic systems. Just that we've run into more douchey trauma systems than non-trauma, and the degree of douchiness seems significantly greater. Maybe it's just a mental thing because the sort of abuse we tend to see from douchey traumagenic systems pattern-matches to our own abuse and thus we remember it better. But still, ugh.

I just... needed to get that out there. After seeing yet another traumagenic system pull the fucking "I was abused and therefore I have the right to abuse you as I see fit, and if you protest you're being manipulative" bullshit*. I... fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck that and FUCK YOU.

*paws at face* I think I'm going to work out the rest of this frustration on... I dunno. Persona 5 music and art commissions, probably.

~ J.

*which wasn't even pulled on us, but a system we've never even met. we just can't even tolerate seeing that shit pulled on anyone.