a queerily queer day

so after on-and-off reading an awesome Kindle book that i just bought on queer theory for much of the day, i randomly ran into a friend at Kinokuniya (bookstore) in Shinjuku. he was on his way to Ni Chome (Tokyo's LGBT bar/club district) and invited me to join him and the friend he was meeting up with, so i was like "what the hell, it's now or never?" well, good job me because tonight was awesome. i should journal and / or blog about it properly later. maybe.

suffice it to say that when two American QPOC get together Awesome Times are had...! for the QPOC involved, at least. god help the Japanese people involved because when talk of gentification, the one drop rule, dichotomies and LGBT identity politics (among many other things) happens, it doesn't matter how good your English is you'll be struggling to keep up.

anyway, at one point there was talk about recent (and on-going) drama in Stonewall Japan, a national gaijin (foreigner) LGBT group/organization.... the group is by far and large dominated by cis white gay men (and to a lesser extent, women) and the drama revolves around QPOC and trans / non-binary stuff.... anyway, lots of gossip talk was had and now i'm feeling even more anxious than i already was because i'm actually going on an Stonewall-organized ""LGBT Weekend"" thing on Saturday/Sunday where i'm going to be spending time in close proximity with the president of Stonewall.... a cis, white, gay man who is arguably at least partially responsible for the current situation in Stonewall in so far as his complete inability to handle it like it should be handled..... and i think that out of the 10~ people attending, i might be the only POC there and ugghhh. i know this guy is going to approach me about the whole Stonewall/QPOC/trans/non-binary situation and i'm just like. anxious. gah. i've never even met the guy before, but i feel like i have ample reason to be hella anxious right now..........

.......anyway.

lots of interesting conversations were had, along with some more questionable ones. like seriously, wtf is with gay people / cis people / binary people trying to define something they themselves are not? in the presence of someone who is?? i get trying to understand something and struggling to wrap your head around it, but sigh. at least i had random photos from a random book that i found while at Kinokuniya to help (or not help) things. the book even included pansexuality and asexuality...! even if it was problematic...! everything's always problematic.... =_=;;

........anyway. from the on-and-off reading about queer theory, to checking out a new (to me) LGBT cafe, to finding several new Japanese LGBT books, to going to Ni Chome, i'd say the rest of my vacation can only go downhill from here in terms of Queerness.

edit: oh, and did i mention that even mention of Arielle Scarcella's video came up? this is my life?? THERE IS NO ESCAPE.