A personal blog for a subsystem (we think? unless we make this Sputnik's idk)
DID problems
It's odd to me that every alter should have a purpose.
Some alters certainly do have a purpose. We have trauma holders, and people to control the trauma holders. But it seems to me like often we end up applying roles where none really apply.
Sputnik... Well... I don't know who I am, but I, Sputnik.. Okay, she herself won't admit it, but she thought for a moment that her only purpose was to force Yuri, our host, to feel emotions. And as Yuri? I'm scared for her.
Fictives like Sputnik don't need a purpose. She just is; and she needs to learn to cherish herself. It's so grim to me to try to define alters like her by their purpose.
An alter's purpose isn't who they are. For trauma holders, like our old host Jordan, I can see why he might believe he's defined by his trauma; he's affected really greatly by our trauma at the time, to the point where it seriously impedes his ability to separate himself from it and/or function academically or otherwise. But Sputnik? Sure, she does more homework than the rest of us (as she'll remind us now and then), but that isn't her purpose. She stresses out more, and has a more willful personality, but that's not her "purpose"; it's just who she is.
It's entirely possible that my brain would create another alter to force me to confront my emotions. After all, the extent to which I can and do ignore them in order to seek objective truth about literally anything I'm faced with isn't very healthy. But even if that's all Sputnik's purpose is? She's an incredible person! That's like saying the EMH on Voyager is nothing more than, well, an emergency holoprogram designed to aid/replace existing medical officers on board. He is the textbook definition of "exceeding his programming," in my mind, and if all Sputnik's meant to do is force me to feel things, so is she.
[im stopping this post bc idk what happened to yuri but cya]



