might stop drinking for a while?

a friend who's struggled with alcohol problems might be coming to crash here for a while. i can live without it, and he's better off with it out of view, so i might as well.

in general i'm going to cut myself down from "recreational" to "as-needed" use of anything. at this point that category consists of...weed, which i can only afford to use for its actual medical purposes and was suggested to him by his doctor in lieu of benzos to help cope with the alcohol damage.

i joke about being a stoner because i hate stigma about the recreational applications, but i prefer being sober for a lot of things. mostly i save it for severe gut pain and nausea and whatever periodic bedtime pain isn't taken down enough by anti-inflammatories and nerve blockers. when my only other option for pain control is oxycodone, weed is less intimidating to me.

i'm probably going to make edibles at some point for bedtimes during ptsd episodes. i don't like to ALWAYS block my ability to dream, but it helps if i've been set off and know to expect nightmares for a week or two.