Wanderings & Musings of a Writer in Progress
Beginning of a New Journey
To begin with I would like to introduce myself to anyone who may stumble across this personal blog and have the slightest interest in getting to know me. I go by the pseudonymn Jesse Fox which I used when I published my original material back in 2008 with a now defunct LGBTQ e-pub known as Dark Roast Press. It was the beginning of what I believed was a dream come true. Between the spring of 2008 and the fall of 2010 I had two novels, two novellas, and two short stories published through them. By January 2011 I realized I was unhappy with the situation and chose to leave. It wasn't a pleasant break despite my best efforts to be professional, but in the end it had to be done.
I never really recovered from the break and have not had anything published since. It wasn't just the break with the publisher to be honest. Despite what the owner thought they knew it was far from the complete truth. I suffer from depression and have done so for well over a decade. My writing had always acted as my own personal therapist, but the publishing fiasco was the final straw that broke the camel's back. With the exception of a couple of on-linefriends I had no support. The sad thing is that my BF of over three decades was not one of those two. At least that's how I feel.
Over the years I've seen so-called friends come and go, but only three remain and my BF was the one person I thought I could depend on. A year ago I had a down swing so severe that I finally opened up to her in the rawest way ever. It was a mistake. Like so many people before who claimed I could be honest with them they had no real interest in seeing or hearing the truth of what I felt deep inside. It was an utter disaster. In that moment I realized I was truly on my own when it came to the fucked up mess my internal psyche had become.
So I've been looking for a way to try and rediscover the path that once made me happy--My writing and my art.
A few days ago one of the two friends I have on-line asked if I would like an invite to imzy which I had no idea what was. After she explained I thought what the hell could it hurt to try. With a new month approaching I figured this might be an opportunity to find my way home at last.



